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Confused.

Sometimes, the questions are simple,
but the answers are complicated.

What I want and what I need are totally different things.
I know what I have to do when the time comes.
There's no other way to protect myself than to be cold and distant...
...when the time comes.
Not everyone is who they seem to be and not everyone see who I really am. And because they don't see the real me ...they are in danger.
Danger... Yes a danger to the heart. I will be your biggest mistake. Pain is what I've known this year and pain is what he will feel...
...when the time comes.
The beginning came to an end too soon and what stayed behind...what lingered in my heart and my mind was only pain that you planted.
I won't say that I miss who used to be ...because I don't. I like who I have become. The heartless bitch that has taken over me. I can't get hurt. I refuse to get hurt again.
These words: I love you, I care about you, I miss you, Thinking about you... Don't have any effect on me whatsoever... Ive gotten better at ignoring you...I've gotten better at not giving a shit about anyone. I've gotten comfortable being alone.
Being alone... Sad as it is... Its comfortable...No one can Lie to me. No one can hurt me....Just being alone.

The Sad Part is I want to Love someone and I want someone to Love Me.


So you see The answer to a simple question is truly complicated.

Answers in bits and pieces.

The answers come in bits and pieces. Meanwhile, we live our lives and go on about what we think and know to be our destiny. What we thought were the answers to our questions came to us in various forms at various times. And, so now we live the life we live, as it was presented to us.

I have asked many questions. I have asked them time and time again. And every time an answer came I treated it as 'the answer'... because it was all I had.

Then a curve ball ...

And a bit just came, and it contradicts all the other pieces that came before it.

Now, I don't know what to do ...

What to do? I have idea...just wait and see what more bits and pieces are given to me.

Oh and I got toothpaste in my left eye this morning... OUCH! I think I might do Yoga sometime this week hopefully soon I need to stretch and relax...and Meditate its healthy for me to organize my thoughts, they are all cluttered in my brain, so some organization is in order.