Color outside the lines...

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I say, why not?

Having this discussion with my cousin made me ralize that I love being out of the ordinary...doing weird shit, saying weird shit, wearing different things... Im colorful and I like it that way.

I finished the painting of the drawing  that I was recreating and I must say I am pretty proud of myself. I can't wait to paint another.

You know what is great...that suposedly 2010 is going to be an awesome year for Pisces & I beleive it will be.

I feel Like making albums of the past 2 years and putting them up as a blog post and I think that's exactly what I will do after I finish making the bracelet...which I did already because I like to do a million things all at once.it's pretty.

I need to find my notebook.... its been lost for a few days and I will go nuts if I don't find it so I will do that and Maybe write tomorrow. Bye!

Unexpected.

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Life really cracks me up, things or people in life come unexpectedly, when you think that there isn't anything that can shift your universe in such a way that it leaves you utterly speechless, there it comes & when this happens its terrifying because just what you wanted came and all you want to do is run because its just not possible, it can be a trick, a mirage, just an image of what you want... it can't possibly be in front of you...then at this point you start to accept the possibility of what just happened except now your really terrified because your fighting with yourself to keep your composure, to keep your cool and not run away from something that is good. If you don't run then the hurt possibility is there and that's why everyone runs...
Because they don't want to break. I will not run. I will not turn away. Yes, when you do this you make yourself vulnerable and open yourself to being hurt once more, the beauty is that if you don't try then you'll never get anywhere and I'm done going no where. I don't want to waste my time, but this might be worth it. And that's when hope comes into play because all you can do now is hope that everything turns out alright and prepare for disappointment if it happens to come.

Magnificent Monday

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3 hours. I slept for 3 hours... At least I woke up one time from the help of parental unit 1 AKA Mom. As I finished getting dressed I grabbed my converses and headed to the backyard to enjoy the morning suns warm embrace, I can't wait till I plant my flower garden so that I have something lovely to look at every time I go to my backyard.

I have finished two books in a matter of 4 days... which is good because I am trying to get through enough of my reading goal list in this month.

I said I refused to talk about guys in this blog anymore until I was serious with someone... and I will stick to it... at least a little update of my love life couldn't hurt ... there is someone right now, all I can say is that things are heading in the right direction in a slow but nice pace and I am glad things worked out the way they did, I think that's enough of an update.

Christmas is coming up and I am excited because after Christmas the next step is New Years and I am so excited for the year up ahead. There is so much I want to do, so much to accomplish. It excites and frightens me all at the same time.

Yesterday was a weird one for me, I fell into one of my weird moods which was uncomfortable since 1. I am always naturally happy and 2. lately Ive been so much happier, All in all I think it was pretty much just because I laid at home all day vegetating and staying put which doesn't go over well with me since I am very active and usually can't stay still for more than a few minutes. I was trapped instead of free I even tried going to the park but there was to much going on, too many people, and not enough quiet.

I will probably write later right now I can't seem to focus to many thoughts going in and out of my brain.

Escapism…

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Sunday was all about this word I just said called Escapism… It just came to my head and since I know that somehow it came I didn’t know where but it did and I looked it up right now and it means: Escapism is mental diversion. I personally didn’t like this meaning, so I decided to make my own meaning of this word.

Miry’s Escapism:
Freedom. To just go, to move without an agenda, without a purpose to do what one wishes without the restraints of time, money, cell phone. All left behind except you and your wishes, you and whatever you feel like doing. Freedom. Get up, move about, run, dance, play, feel, sing, drive, speak, paint, draw, create, listen… however whenever with whoever. Freedom. Cry, feel, wander, explore, watch….just watch. Look, simply look around you while on Escapism… what are you looking at? What do you see? How do you feel when you see? Did you notice before? Freedom.


What a great Monday… I feel truly happy I can’t wait for Friday though since I have it off I am going to have an Escapism Day. =)

Random Rambling

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My first cup of coffee this morning, it’s amusing to me how every time I go to Seven Eleven for my morning coffee… I mix my coffee differently but with the exact same ingredients.

Last night I stayed home all night which is weird… I usually go out and do something. But no, last night I watched The Haunting of Molly Hartley all by myself and then Love Actually with my sister, after I read a few more chapters of my book and went to sleep.

I have a bit of writers block today because I want to talk about something….but I have refused to talk about guys anymore on this blog until I am seriously serious with someone, which is frustrating, I hate to have to omit these things in my head. I like to write about these things but…||GRRRRRRRRRRRRR||

I wish that I could run without a purpose across an open field in the middle of the night without shoes and lay smack in the middle of the field breathless and just look up at the sky for an infinite amount of hours then get up, run some more and jump into a lake without any care in the world that all my clothes are wet.

I can’t believe its Thursday already I feel like the week has begun and ended all at the same time. At least the first week of December has been a great one and hopefully the rest of December will be just as or even greater.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH….. That’s how I feel.

Beautiful Day - Sara Haze ♥

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I love that song.

For inspiration, for new perspectives.

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I can always feel when things are about to happen or when things are about to change. Slowly but surely that's whats happening. Things are changing, I am changing. I like how things are going.

Last night I tossed and turned and went in and out of sleep... to say the least I didn't want to wake up this morning, when I did my brain was muddy, it must have taken me 5 minutes to get moving I was at a total stand still just sitting up right in bed without a clue as to what to do next. Since, as of, the beginning of this year I don't get cold at night anymore, actually the opposite I get really hot and sweaty I just sleep in my underwear and the fan on... One of the reasons I want to live alone is because I would get to parade around my house in my undies and not have to worry about the parental units, which already think I have lost half of my mind.

I have to go buy a new canvas, I want to paint I feel inspired... Especially with this windy weather today...I opened a window at work...air is circling around me and making me feel absolutely tranquil. Peaceful. I want to paint how the feeling is. I wish I can explain but if I try to put into words how the wind is making me feel right now, it wouldn't come out right, not even close. I wish people could see and feel how the simple things in life are the ones that mean the most.

I'm day-dreamy today... Its not a bad thing though.

I'm off to go grab some coffee... =)

Possibilities in Chances in Miry's Words

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People will, intentionally or unintentionally, try to shake you, surprise you, disappoint you, break you... What you have to do is be ready...prepare yourself for the shake, the surprise, the disappointment, and the breakdown. Its going to happen whether you like it or not... Why stop living? Why stop going out and finding new possibilities. Why stop yourself because someone hurt you... When you stop yourself you miss opportunities, experiences even possibilities, Hello life goes on, or you die tomorrow with regret and sorrow that you waited for something that was in front of you the whole time or something you could have grabbed when you had the chance but didn't because you were scared, who is to say that the best times of your life never actually happened because you didn't let it, never gave it a fair chance to happen. If someone you want doesn't want you back,well tough, you will find someone who will want to give you those 100% that the last person couldn't or didn't want to. Don't waste time because time is a precious thing, a very very short precious thing.

I have been shaken, surprised by the idiocy of peoples actions, Utterly disappointed, and broken down so badly that I didn't want to see the light of day... I didn't deserve it, but guess what It happened and here I stand tall waiting for the next life experience, the next chance. I don't just stand here and wait any longer I go out and get what I want and if it doesn't want me back then too bad for them, they missed out...that's where my difference comes from, I will just keep moving along with my head up and my sweet smile and say "Next."

Next Possibility
Next Chance
Next Opportunity
Next Life Experience

Do not just stand still anymore, forgive and forget and move on. Take things for what they are and accept them and move forward.... That is what I failed to understand, the comprehension of this moving forward Idea was a big blur of nonsense to me because how could I move forward when my heart felt so heavy like it was dragging me down holding me still... Until I decided to take chances to stop being still and start moving forward with everything I've got. Because of this realization I have been a happy person the last year or so, I am happy. I've been happy. One disappointment after the next and guess what I am still not going to stop moving forward and being happy.

Breathe. Let go.
Breathe. Let go.
Breathe. Let go.
Breathe. Be happy.

The Past was, The Present is, what The future will be is up to you.

(c)Miry

Until the feelings gone....

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Well the feeling is definitely gone. With a snap of fingers and that was it, I was done feeling.

I am planning to stay busy as much as possible until the end of the year so that I have a wonderful, full of activities end of the year. I can't wait for 2010... The beginning of a new year always seems so promising, full of new things and possible changes.

From now on I refuse to talk about my love life in my blog, the only way would be if I and someone else were totally serious. So from now on no more talk about guys. I am going to buy a new ring, and start fresh with a new promise.

It is wonderful to have a different state of mind than most people, things are a lot easier.

I have decided to add a call blocker to my phone, someone keeps calling me unknown and its really bothersome so I downloaded the App. it also has a feature to add phone numbers that you would like to block as well, how convenient.

Either way I am out of work early today. So of to do activities. Good day everyone.

The solution is this.

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Either give up that which you fear to lose so it no longer holds any power over you, or consider what you will still have if your fear comes to pass. After all, if you did lose all you'd built, you would still keep the experience and knowledge that you've gained up to this point.

I'm cold, but I'm beautiful. I'm a mess, but I like it that way.

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Opening your eyes and feeling them sting because you spent the whole night crying, Saturday night was so much fun, until the end of the night when Carlos started talking about relationships and totally turned on me about the type of guys I date, He says I deserve someone that respects me and If they actually cared about me they would go out of their way to be with me to see me and this and that... I've been holding back my tears for a long time now, because I refuse to cry... but then the flow of tears just started and they didn't stop until I went to sleep, I felt truly and utterly sad and defeated because all the words that were coming out of his mouth were true in a sense, yes his words and the way he said it was harsh and they hurt but I needed to hear them, because he is right, I am a beautiful girl and I do deserve better than what I thought was good for me.


Sometimes I feel like I wont find someone who will go out of their way for me. Someone that will consider me an important and special part of their life. Why is that so hard to find?


I honestly rather be alone, if I cannot find that. 


At least...


 ...and I always start my days like if it was just that, a brand new day with brand new possibilities. 

WEDNESDAY is my favorite day of the week.

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My hair smells wonderful, if I could smell my hair all day, I would.... Actually that is exactly what I am doing I have my hair down so that I can just turn my face and smell the glorious scent that resides there... and the best part of all is that its super pretty and twirly. I kept bothering Annabelle and Mabelle last night while we hung out to touch my twirl, then I let it lose and Mabelle really liked it. =) I told her to twirl her hair as well it would look so nice and pretty.

Right now I am into Crystals and Stones, I am really enjoying learning about the different types of crystals and what energies they produce and what they can be used for. I want to actually start meditating more often and also doing Yoga more often as well. I guess you can say I am on a spiritual path just trying to find what works for me and Ive always been a Mystic, I've always believed in Energies, Auras, Elements, & Meditation.

As far as what needs to be taken care of, I have been doing well Taking care of my face by going to the Dermatologist getting medication and some topical ointments which is actually doing wonders for my face. I'm taking my vitamins and still going to the gym on a daily basis, even though I've been a bit lazy lately... I told this to Annabelle and she said because beach time is over so there is no motivation. I guess she is right, so that means I have to direct my motivation to something else...hmmm.... But what?

OMG!!! I just turned my face again... Wow I can't get over this orgasmic smell. I just can't wait till my hair gets longer.

Ive been thinking of possibly making this blog into a book. I need some inputs about this. I'm not sure I want my personal thoughts floating about for everyone to read, but why should I see it as a negative thing? What if it actually helps people out, they relate and get inspired to write about their stuff as well. I guess I will just have to wait and see.

I want to do so many things, another one is painting and drawing more often. Its such a stress reliever and most of the time I just start with some sort of shape and end up with something really amazing. I guess in time but first I need to get organized a bit. I mean I only have one small room to fit all my chaos in, that's why most of the time its messy but I always know where everything is... well except my keys they are always on a never ending mission to be lost or hide from me. No worries though I have a spare set and I have even thought of a third set just in case.

Anyway, for the most part lately Ive been happy. Which is what I wanted. I go up and down a lot but at least lately not much has been able to bring me down if I am sad it only last for a few hours maybe a day but for the most part I get over it and I really can't complain because I am happy. No matter what I am happy.

Five Boyfriends... This is Annabelle's plan for moi, She says I need to get five boyfriends and stop concentrating on just one. I like her idea but it goes against what I've always believed... but maybe shes right and I should because what I have always believed has never really worked for me.

Hehe, Well that's all folks.

Sorry This, Sorry That

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I hate when the word "sorry" is used. It's not like it has any meaning, its just a word. Sorry... its not like people are really sorry.. no, not really. It's like if you ran over someones cat and you go to their door step and say
"Hey, Im really sorry, but I ran over your cat." Instead they should go get you a new cat that means then that there wouldnt be any need for sorry because you have made it up to them with a gesture of true remorse and thats what Sorry should be. And sending someone flowers is not really saying sorry its actually saying "I really hope that with these flowers you will not be mad at me any longer" Not that they truly are sorry.

Well that's the lesson for today.

The reason I have decided on this topic is because A.C. emailed <---- yes emailed me an excuse as to what happened on Saturday, Ending his long paragraph in " I am soooooo sorry!"

Anyway this is it for right now, I have to go and do some work.

Bulletproof

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What a glorious morning it is. Beautiful, bright, breezy….that’s a lot of B words.

Right now I am racking my brain at work trying to figure out how to edit an already made Flash website I’ve been able to change and edit some things but since the creator wasn’t I, then it’s a bit harder because I have to figure out what he did and how he named things which is utterly frustrating.

My weekend was pretty great, even Saturday which was a total disappointment in the A.C. department. I am glad that this frustrating situation is over. Let’s just say Saturday night left a bitter taste of the past in my mouth and I don’t want a repeat… I’ve dealt with enough bullshit. So I am doing the smart thing and walking away next time like that happens.

This is my theme song from now on:

La Roux – Bulletproof

Been there, done that, messed around
I’m having fun don’t put me down,
I’ll never let you sweep me off my feet,
I won’t let you in again, the messages I’ve tried to send,
my informations’ just not going in,
burnin’ bridges shore to shore, I’ll break away from something more,
I’m not to not to love until it’s cheap,
been there, done that, messed around,
I’m having fun don’t put me down,
I’ll never let you sweep me off my feet,

Chorus:
This time maybe,
I’ll be,
Bulletproof x2

I won’t let you turn around,
and tell me now I’m much too proud,
to walk away from something when it’s dead,
do do do your dirty WORST come out to play when you are HURT,
there’s certain things that should be left unsaid,
tick tick tick tick on the watch and life’s too short for me to stop,
Oh baby, your time is running out,
I won’t let you turn around,
and tell me now I’m much too proud,
All you do is fill me up with doubt,

Chorus:
This time maybe I’ll be bulletproof x2
This time baby I’ll be bulletproof x2
This time I'll be bulletproof x2
This time maybe I’ll be bulletproof x2
This time baby I’ll be bulletproof x2



Anyway, I am really enjoying my new book. It makes sense in some weird way. It said something that I agree with now because in my experience it always seems to be true. “Indifference is key…One has to be just indifferent, neither for nor against; don’t be for doubt, don’t be against doubt.” Another thing that was in my book made so much sense as well and it’s this, “Love is not an effort; you cannot make an effort to love. If you make an effort there is no love. You flow into it, you don’t make an effort, you simply allow it to happen…” Like I said, I really like the book.

Things I am excited for:
New Moon
Holidays
Changes
Vegas
2010

Well Babes, I am out I have to concentrate on work things. Have a wonderful day.

Bleeding Notebooks

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A good morning to you fellow readers, on this lovely Monday morning the weather is wonderfully windy and beautiful. I love where I am working now, it is an internship but things are looking very promising in the making money getting hired possibilities. They love me already.




Today, I feel really happy… I truly love my friends and their company they always keep me laughing and smiling and that’s very essential to me. On Saturday we went to Chili’s and had some drinks and appetizers, we couldn’t stop laughing together and having a great time, after that we went to party at Play, It was fun to go out just the four of us together again… We need more days like that. I just have to make sure that next time I take 5 Hour Energy because I was the driver and on the way home I was falling asleep behind the wheel…..NO GOOD!



I need:

- Project Notebook

- Flash Project Sketchbook

- Canvas

- Paint and Brushes

- Pink Glasses



Its really weird how I can express my feelings completely on a piece of paper, in a notebook, in a sketchbook or painting, in this blog… but in real life I can’t come to entirely accept or express what I am feeling, It wasn’t always like that though. The other day I stumbled upon some old photos my mom had in a box and I saw myself a couple of years back and all I could think was… Wow, how things have changed.



I need to do some meditating today, so I can organize my thoughts and feelings… I am already having stupid “what if” thoughts and “scenarios,” I just don’t want to think about those “what ifs” even though I am already mentally prepared I just don’t want to deal with negative thoughts right now. I mean seriously, what is the worst that can happen that hasn’t already happened to me. Exactly! So why am I so worried?



Alright!!! That’s IT!! I’m done thinking… back to work.

Now I can see....

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Today my thoughts are on over drive, not in a bad way though, I just have a lot on my mind lately. Wait... I always have a lot on my mind... so scratch that I should say that my mind is on overdrive today.

Anyway, I was watching Push the other day and I thought how cool would it be to have super cool compulsion powers, that you can make anyone believe or do whatever you wanted them to. That would be super fun... I can make people run in their underwear in the supermarket yelling "Aliens stole my pants!" 

Since I have deprived myself or literally taken myself away from Facebook, Myspace and other Social networking things I have found that I have so much time and I am so productive, get more done, the day is so much better and even better yet that I don't get too see peoples stupidity...woooooohoooo Go me!! Wait there's more to the upside of this....yes I get to take myself out of peoples view and let them forget I exist for a while, Which you might say, "Why in the hell would you want to do that?" Well its really quite simple because people are jealous and others just want to be nosey, and then I will come back and bomabrd Facebook with my ever shining presence again, but the difference is that I would have trained myself to not be addicted to those stupid networking things.

I am kind of happy with the way things are turning out, as of lately I feel like I am finally making the right choices in some areas.

Halloween is coming up and I am making my costume instead of buying one because I am saving money, I mean seriously why waste about $50 on a costume your only going to wear for one night and thats it. Like, No Thanks.

Besides all of that I am on a good tip reading a lot, to actually reach my goal. But if I don't reach it I will just roll over the ones I missed out and put them on next years list and hope that I can acheive that list in one year.

Well I am sleepy and I should be going to bed...I am actually watching different workout videos to get ideas so that I don't always stick to the same routines...you know spice it up. If not my body gets used to the same thing and stops responding to the same workouts.

Anyways I should really be going, long day ahead tomorrow.

Goodnight loves.

Sun Shining Sunday

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Hello fellow readers... what a lovely Sunday, its bright and the sun is beaming and the weather is actually nice...Oh and I woke up with a good hair day. =)

Makes me want to visit the lake and finish reading Blood Promise and start on a new book.

Sometimes you have an hour conversation with someone and you feel like you have received a lifetime full of information.

I've decided to treat things and life... special moments, happy moments, sad moments, hard moments, loving moments,  they all disappear and are nothing more than a memory, a memory of the past that is no longer alive, unless you keep it alive in you. And that's why most of us fail to move one... the memories of those moments are stronger in ourselves than when the moment actually happened and that's why I choose to forget. That is why I keep pictures of things I want to remember and delete those of the times and people I rather forget. For me it works... I like to look back at times and things so if I get rid of the things I don't want to see or rather forget its as if it never happened. But some memories...some.... just stay with you because of the impact it had on your life, because of the changes that took place....no matter what you decide to erase they are still there. But those types just fade with time like scars.

Wow... Sorry guys I guess I got all weird again for a brief paragraph...but seriously back to business.... I can't wait for New Moon to come out already! I'm pretty sure that on that day I will be jumping of the walls with excitement and that I will look like a little kid on Christmas morning after receiving the best gift ever!

I need to buy my self a real white gold necklace for Christmas...because since I am allergic to fake jewelry It makes my neck red and itchy and I hate when that happens. especially since I used to wear one that i had all the time but it broke =( , I have a gold necklace but I hate yellow gold ... I really do. its such and ugly color, so I refuse to wear it. I will never get rid of it though, it was a necklace my daddy bought me and I love my dad way too much to do that.

I love these songs from The Spill Canvas....

Lullaby - The Spill Canvas
This Is For Keeps - The Spill Canvas

Oh it was a great weekend and my hair smells so good. So I'm off to do things and not be cooped up in this house all day.

Today I am good, hopefully it lasts.

Sitting @ the Tattoo Shop

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Right now I am sitting at the tattoo shop waiting for Annabelle to finish. ...lol she hasn't even started. Oh wait I hear the bzzzzzzzz of the tattoo machine and Annabelles face for the first two minutes were of pain but I think now she's getting used to it.

Its crazy...

I was thinking for a design for my own tattoo... but I am really indecisive.

Ouch Motherfucker!!!!

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A book fell on my little toe, and a paper cut..let me tell you, the post office isn't fun at all.

Patience is key darling's... you have to be patient and wait for it. For what you ask, Everything.


I will let you in on a little secret, I've been lost for a very long time now, lost and I can't find myself I don't even think I want to. I have no direction and everytime I think I'm going the right way it turns out that I am back trying to figure out where I made a wrong turn. Sometimes I want to give up, but giving up isn't an option, never will be an option. I will just push harder than I did before in a new direction. That's just the way I am.

Today my mood is neutral, I am sitting by the lake and pondering about my next move. I wish I could leave Miami. I love this city but hate everyone in it.

Well I am going to sit here a while longer and
meditate.

Toodooloo

Dancing Stars and Midnight in Mars

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I woke up early today and started writing in my pink notebook with my pink pen... in my personal opinion my ideas look better in pink. I started my day on a good note and I am excited about all of the ideas I have come up with.

My hair is super curly and crazy but it looks great. I downloaded the new Tiesto Kaleidoscope album and its a different style than his usual stuff more vocal I guess but I can't seem to stop listening to it... I also have a list of movies I need to download for my viewing pleasure.

Yesterday I almost shut off my phone every five minutes it would chime or ring and was getting on my nerves.

I was very humored and amused yesterday, I am alot smarter than I look... besides most of the time I just dont give fuck about stupid stuff, why should I? I mean seriously look at me, I mean really look not just the outside look past that and you'll find the treasure I hold within.

I'll write later ive got some business to take care of.

Walk, Run, Think.

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Apart from this weekends unfortunate events =/ I won't even begin to explain, this one is off the records let's just say it was a little disappointing but nothing I can't handle....Today so far has been a good day.

For one I went to my school and asked them to please do a better job at finding me a proper job...I really hate being a bitch about it, but it is what must be done.

I asked Dario for some advice on a couple of things and he is always right. He always tells me the things that I need to hear.


I have decided that instead of going to the gym today I will go for a jog at the Park and then sit at my place and just meditate and think. I'm sure about one thing though, trust isn't just given, it must be earned.

One thing is for certain is that I cant wait to go to Orlando and see Tiesto and Have an awesome time with my friends at Hollow-o-Scream this upcoming weekend. I have this habit of wanting to leave Miami every time something happens that I am not happy about. Its weird I know but I guess its because I am weird myself and sometimes I just don't know how to not be weird. I have embraced it though and even if people don't like my weirdness there is nothing I can really do about it...I rather be absolutely weird and out there than downright boring and dull who the hell wants a dull girl? I know that I sure as hell don't want a dull guy.

Shake it, shake shake shake it!

Ive been wanting to dance so badly for the past few days but I mean really dance like turn it up and go crazy. Shake and move and swing and jump and go in circles and wave my arms in the air like I just don't care and all that good stuff... I even want to throw some salsa and merenge in the mix and rock out to some crazy rock music.

Feelings...

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You have every right to your feelings, no matter what they are -- and you have every right to express them. So say what you mean -- you don't have to worry about how people react. That's not your responsibility, anyway. If their feelings get hurt or they take issue with things, that's because of some issue or unresolved problem they need to deal with.

Fear

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It is funny how one person can change your whole perpective of other people. We question their actions and their motives. We analyze and compare. We push away because they installed fear.
Fear is the worst enemy, it paralyzes you and does not let you move forward, move on, take a step towards someone or something you want.
The truth is after that one person mentally fucks you up it opens your eyes to see things in a different light. People suddenly become different. It's not that they are different or changed or whatever, the fact is that now you see it differently than before.

Maybe I am thinking about this too much and I am totally wrong....Maybe I am right. Who knows thats just the way I see it.

I need to focus today. Its important for my job interview to be calm and confident and ready. I really want this job. After I will go to the gym and let out all the negativity that just entered my brain this morning. But for the most part I do feel like it is going to be a great day and that everything will turn out just fine.

:)

I will let everyone know how it goes.

October 2nd 2009 - Annabelle's Birthday

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I am actually having as great day today.

I finished a painting yesterday. I also met A.C., a friend from facebook that invited me to have coffee with him, he's super nice. We had a lot of conversation. I went home with a smile... a real smile.

Last night I went to Flannigans for Annabelles birthday and It was fun I still have my mean streak with certain people, it depends on the person I guess like the guy Annabelle is talking to Omar's friend Carlos... Being mean to him was amusing, really they do this to themselves... I think I am only that way about people that I feel are too full of themselves for no apparent reason, Another good example is DJ Eddie, damn I miss being a bitch to him.

I am excited about tonight's festivities My Partner in crime is finally 21 and we are going to Party it up tonight at Rokbar in South Beach. Party! Party! Party! Woooooooooooo!!!!!

Today is a good day I guess you can say. And things are starting to look up again. I guess for now I am on a good level...still little stressed about the JOB situation but it will come. At least I can go to Tiesto in Orlando on the 17th Yay! =)

All in all I hope this weekend goes smoothly because I know I am going to have to make sure that I am good enough to take care of all the drunk people in my group.

Quote of the Day: Life isn't a journey of finding yourself, it's a struggle of creating yourself.

=)

Great quote.

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Many of the great achievements of the world were accomplished by the tired & discouraged who kept on working.

Oh goody...

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So guess what I cant keep my mouth shut today because I am angry!

I found out that Ahmed is having another child with that heffer of a girlfriend that he has, Wow...so Guess what I did... I told his brother that he was calling me and he didn't know apparently he wanted to keep calling me under wraps ...I told his brother to tell him not to call me anymore, because he already made his choice. Go Me!

I am also angry at the fact that I havent been able to find a decent job. Ive gone to countless interviews and nothing... Wow is the economy that bad? Wait a second of course it is. Sorry my mistake.

Any thing else...

Oh yes my family thinks I am tired and sick... Yea guess what... I am like this because I am sick and tired of life being this way! I was supposed to be already moved out.

Grrrr... Im too down right now I am going to go to sleep.

Let's think about this...

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Today I am making a plan...I need to do something to improve this money situation.

This morning on my way to my internship I was very scared that I wasn't going to have enough gas to make it to work. I made it, now my issue is how the hell on this planet am i going to make it back to my house if I have zero gas in my tank...Not to mention $0.00 in my bank account. How the hell am I going to make it to the gym? How the hell am I supposed to do anything at all...I cant even eat.

Fuck it, I guess I will have to deal with it until things get better...All i have to say is screw this economy its going to shit and its only getting worse. I am here working for free without gas in my tank. How does that sound to you? Yea shitty huh.

Besides that I guess you can say that I'm not really stressing anything else but that.

I love ruffling peoples feathers. Words can't describe how much it amuses me.

Well anyhoo I have to start "The Plan"

Laters.

Chaos..

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I told a friend before he left that I was going to be causing some Chaos in Miami after he left and after I solve a few things that need to be solved.

& that is the truth, I have already started to place the puzzle peices where they belong. Correcting wrongs and having all the patterns figured out so all goes according to plan. Peoples lives will be turned upside down. They wont know what hit them. People have yet figured out what I am. I don't even know... I can't explain how it is that I do what I do...but I just do it.

There is a list, there's always a list. Thats how I do things I write them down and cross them off as I go.

I will not tolerate peoples mistakes or their malicious actions... I will not wait for fate to take care of their karma... I will not stand here and do nothing when I know that they need to learn their lessons. I know many people won't agree with me, but it's not their desicion.

I will be a good person no matter what... So my intention is not to hurt anyone. I will not be hurting people... it is wrong to intentionally hurt people especially if you loved them at one point... lets just say its a harsh realization that will hopefully change their lives.

Each step has to be taken carefully and without flaw. If not things will go terribly wrong.

Today I am taking care of a couple of things that need to be taken care of like my internship I am not sure if this is the right place for me so i will go check out a few more places that do what I do... I will workout hard today because last week I slacked and I have to be in awesome shape for a paying photoshoot for a website. And I need to get things in order to start paying annabelle and my uncle and other things that need to be handled.

I am angry today but I will not let people see it. I kind off want to throw things all over the place... or go punch something. I guess I will have to just let it all out at the gym.

What a fun day this will be today.

Well I am off to do a couple of things...

Reccomendations:
Movie: Surrogates
Music: Acceptance
Books: Fade
Treat: Frozen Yogurt w/ Marshmellows.

Ciao!

Something...

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Its a cloudy Saturday afternoon and I feel relieved yet still tired... I will go today and I will do what I need to do in order to fix the messes that others have crated for me and around me. Today will be a no nonsense kind of day I need to get down to the bottom of this mess and fix all of it.

I am really down because my money seems to be disappearing....I think this is one of the things that its messing with... Why didn't I get the Job that Goob said would totally be mine when I am obviously qualified for it? Why do things suddenly show up that I need to pay? Why hasn't it worked out with anyone? Why am I working so hard and doing everything so right yet I still get no results? Things of that nature that now i have come to realize its not me!

I already had my pills and I am going to go to the gym after I do what I need to do.

Things will be really turning around this time. I hope that by the end of this year my life will be back on track and normal.

I have decided that I can't go to anything anymore, I am not going to Deadmau5, I am not going to Vegas, I am not going to a lot of things I want to go to just because I have to use all the money I am making to pay things off, I hardly have anough for gas. I am just thinking of not even going to Orlando and telling Annablelle to sell the Tiesto ticket and get back the money from that. It's not what I want to do... Its what I have to do, maybe Laura would want to go and take my place so that way Manny gets 60 that was supposed to be my share. I know they will be dissapointed but I know that they will understand. I am trying to do the responsible thing and take care of all of the things i need to before the end of the year so maybe 2010 can be a Peaceful, non-monetary issue, successful, happier year.

Thursday Morning Realization

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One day I just stopped being sad over something I had no control over; instead I made a decision & a difference in my own life and started working towards myself and my future. Today on this Thursday morning I realize that I am happier then I was, even though I am different and things have changed, I am still truly happy. I am alone without a relationship especially when I don't want one, but I am still sincerely happy. – Mirielys Perez

Miry-ville continued...

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From a distance everything seems perfect, and that’s how I want it to be.

I’ve had more calls from Ahmed and I can not lie and say that I get happy when he does, because in the end he is thinking of me while he is with her.

That knowledge that he is miserable with her actually makes me happy. It’s not evil and I am not a bad person it’s just the plain and simple truth… He made a big mistake.

The questions still exists:

1) Why did he come back and start calling me, the real reason not the bullshit reason?

2) What does he truly want or expect from me?

3) He says he fell for me, but is that really true?

Whatever, I cannot stress this shit because I have things to get done and goals to accomplish, the game plan needs to stay in tact.

My schedule has gotten hectic. With the internship, the gym and everything else.

Well that’s it for today!

Another day in Miry-ville.

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Well all is well, I can't complain.

I have the internship which is going rather well even though this my second day. I will explain about my duties and things later when I get well adjusted.

I am still happy above all else. There is always room for self improvement, which is my life's goal really to just improve anything about myself till I am in my old age.

Head Over Heels - I definitely am not, but I can't say the same for a few guys out there that have fallen for me, why does this happen?

All in all everything is working out as it should be. More or less.

Ugh... I have to get going but I will write later.

Rewind to just three days ago...

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So I was freaking out... Because something is happening. Something big is in the works and I can feel it.

I swear guys get stupider and stupider each day...its becoming easier to read people and differentiate between good guys, players and gays lmaoooo! All I do is observe of course just to gain the knowledge and the accuracy of these readings, in order to protect myself. Slim one of my friends which I was helping out with girl issues (MAJOR GIRL ISSUES), says I am evil. I simply told him that Even if that were the truth I will never be hurt... the only person that can hurt me is me and that's better than being hurt by someone else.

Besides that I have an internship interview in a merketing company....so I wont be paid but I will learn the ropes in the marketing business which is exactly my field of expertise.

Sometimes I feel like I am too good... and I know that is a wrong way to think about myself I shouldnt believe or even think that I am better than anyone else. But thats what I feel...Except and this is the weird part.... I cant say that about my family... I dont feel any better than Made, Annie, and boo... I just don't, to me we are equals... to me WE are better than everyone else. I hope I made my point.

I printed out a re-admissions sheet for Miami Dade. I am thinking of continuing to my bachelors in Web Administration. Or do what I want like Philosophy or Journalism. I guess I will talk to an admissions counselor or whatever when the time comes. I want to further my education.

Alsoooo....
Recomendations:
Movie - Gamer
Book - Drugs Sex and Cocoa Puffs
Music - Cobra Starship
Excercise - Donkey Kicks....For butt ;)

Well readers I've got to go get ready.

BYE BYE..

Spin me around...

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and around and around...

::Giggles::

I feel humorous today like life is one big beautiful joke that I have learned to appreciate and hate all at the same time.

Wow, What can I say today on this lovely Tuesday morning... I am up early that's one, I actually like my hair this morning, that's two, I have put at least 30 books for sale on Amazon since yesterday afternoon, that's three... I have gotten halfway through my book Drugs Sex and Cocoa Puffs and its really entertaining... I have to finish it in order to know whether a recommendation is worthy.

Besides all that Ive been dealing with my things and my life very smoothly everything is going as planned with an occassional surprise. I am being that girl that I wanted to be...if you don't remembe...r It was on a post.. June 4 of 09 ...but since we both know you arent going back I will just repost the freaking picture...

There you go. Now the successful part is not just as in the career type way that I still need to work on but in other ways. ;)

I saw S.A.V. yesterday, we hung out for a bit... I haven't seen him since maybe when the Wolverine movie came out.... He says I look the same but different...that there is something different about me he couldn't quite figure out... LOL Exactly my love... ex-fucking-actly. Now all I need are just minor upgrades and tweaks here and there. Damn you'd think I was talking about a computer or a robot. LMAO... Everyone says I should see this movie called Jennifer's Body because 1. I look like her and 2. supposedly I'd love the concept of the movie... I would be lying if I said I wasn't intrigued.


My hair is now a couple of inches longer and the goal is for it to reach below my Boobies before my birthday. =) I have stopped all pulling (Its harder than it seems).

By the way I am having Plain Wheat toast <--- ewww.... I know but I ate like a little piggy this weekend and I am now on mission mode...not that its anything too bad I just don't feel right when I don't make healthy food decisions. Not only that but my body hates me after-wards.

Oh oh oh and for those of you who live in the MIA ... there's a new place that just opened in front of FIU called Chic Berry its all about ...My favorite snack... Frozen Yogurt... guess what Its awesome times a million!!!! I'm a fiend for it on a 24/7 basis... thank you Mabelle for taking us there.

Well Since I have apparently babbled on and on about my life and today I shall leave you with this little bit of wise knowledge I have come up with.


The only way to get what you deserve is to take a chance and go after it, no matter how scary it seems. While the effort seems enormous, it'll be worth it.

Bye...

100th and Counting....

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I don’t let my guard down. I built those walls up high, and they’re not coming down anytime soon. Don’t worry, you won’t be crashing through them. You think you’re special, you think that I’ll let you in… well, you’re wrong. Because no one is coming through, and I’m certainly not going out. I guess you could say I’m taking a break from feelings for awhile.


As all of you know this is my 100th post, and yes this blog will continue to be my personal blog and I will write in it whatever the hell I feel like writing in it... I have a new found attitude that i will use in my style of writing.

Now as for people who have been reading and kept up with all my posts...then you know that Ive been through a lot of ups and down...Well I am on a rocket ship up with occasional turbulence. Please don't get in my way, it won't be pretty.

Let me tell you a couple of things about me... I always win... even when you think you have won you haven't

If you have to know ... my mentality is set like this... no matter what I am the best... there was, there is, there ever will be...My number one priority right now is my family and my friends and my goals. ::Smiles widely:: wait till you see what's coming.

As the End of the year approaches I realize that this year has gone by fairly quickly... and it will almost be 2010 It felt like just yesterday i was celebrating my 22nd birthday and i will soon be celebrating it once more on my 23rd.

Alright Show and Tell time...
New Glasses....in black and in white:




Let I got them in two different colors as to match with my outfits.








Besides that I got New Contacts The grey and the clear that I wanted.
I am currently reading Sex Drugs and Cocoa Puffs, and then I will be reading Wicked....

I am also going to Re-post my reading list since i will be moving some to next years list and adding others to this years list.

Besides all that I am going to be working on a couple of projects I have come up with while doing research at the library... How fun.

I am super good and happy.

I have a Bulletin Board in my room.... its called my visualization board...where I keep pictures and writings of what I want ...you can say maybe a collage of my goals and so far everything on it seems to be coming together in bits and pieces but it will be whole soon enough.

Some Wisdom I have aquired that I will like to share with you guys:

1. Take time for yourself more often...its ok to be selfish at times
2. Dont take things for granted.
3. Waiting for your soul mate or the person you your meant to be with is ok
4. Being alone and happy is better than being with someone totally wrong and miserable
5. Dont let people tell you who you are or who you have to be...be yourself and whoever doesnt like it can kiss perfectly small round booty.
6. Family comes first!!!
7. Looking into the past is stupid...focus on the future.

I used to overthink everything and analyze things to the T... Well now I do no such thing, now I only calculate.

MIRY

99 Puzzle Peices.

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Hello readers sorry I haven't written in a while its that I have been sort of busy doing things and getting stuff ready for major changes.

I have also had a very eventful two weeks. and my 100th blog post is coming really soon.

I will tell you whats been happening lately and I think I owe some people explanations about my disappearances and my lack of communication.

First I will like to start with One of my best friends. Dario. I do miss him every single day... I want to call him and tell him everything about whats going on and about all the cool stuff I have been up too and about every single little funny thing that I know he will crack up about and then probably choke because it was what he always did when I said something that caught him off guard. He is an awesome person and a very dear friend in my heart and it will always remain that way. I think he thinks that I left because he wasn't the best... but he was.. he truly is a one of kind guy and I know he felt more for me than I did for him that's why I had to go, I didn't want to hurt him. I am crying as I am writing this because I really do miss him and I do want him to know I am really sorry.

Secondly, I would like to say that people from my past have been trying to communicate with me... I will start off with Ahmed... I know all about why he LEFT me... to return to his ex and his two children and that's totally cool with me I admire him for sacrificing his happiness for his kids. He called me the other day and we had a good conversation about how we were doing and all but that's about it nothing too big. Then comes Armando which requested me once more... I should have denied the request because he is after all a person who hurt me very badly but I like to put things in the past and keep them there, I forgive whatever it is that he has done to me and also for calling me a dumb fuck as told to me by Pedro which was told to him from his ex Paula which she heard directly from his mouth.... but like I said I am a very forgiving person but trust me he is forgotten. He sent me a message after I did approve him. He said in these exact words Copied and pasted: just wanted to make sure you were doing ok. take care. miss you ......... and that was that I never responded I never even felt a bit of anything towards it just read it and kept moving right along.

Thirdly, I wanted to talk about Mabelle and how much she resembles me not only in the way she looks but in how much passion she has for certain things how much we go through the same things despite of our age differences. To me we are equals, two of a kind I can tell her anything in the world and I know its safe. She is not only one of my bestest friends but she is also my cousin, my family , my sister. We take care of each other that's just how it is.

Fourthly, <---yes i will keep doing that... Annabelle My best friend, my other sister, my partner in crime and my other half who always understands me as well she always knows she always listens and shes always there helping me through it all she is the one that I admire the most. She takes life and if it messes with her she messes with it.. lately I do feel like there is something wrong though like there is something that she doesn't want to say. I can tell, I always can.

Fifthly, I decided that I don't want a relationship, I don't want to date, I don't need distractions to get in the way of my goals and achievements and I want to go back to school which I am going to do so very soon. I am also making a business plan outline because I don't want to be working for no one else but myself and that is another big issue. But when I get there I will deal with it. I have been organizing my life and things are looking brighter each and everyday. My smile and shine is back I am happy. Truly happy and I know what I want and I know where I am going... I know things can change in a minute but for now I like this good feeling and I don't want it to be taken away any time soon.

As off now I am going to the gym every single day and training 3 people not for money but because it makes me happy maybe one day for money but not right now. I am down to 109 pounds (remember I am a tiny person.) My goal was 110lbs by December but I guess I have been working out harder than I thought. I have also been reading more and more I just go through them... I like the fantasy world in it the world that I can pretend to be the character. I have placed myself in these characters and i have truly cried because all in all they are put in the same life situations we all do, especially when the situations hit close to home.

I also want to talk about my sister, she is a good sister who doesn't want to see me hurt but she has a tough personality all in all I would always do more for her than she for me but that is okay because I love her so much and that is the way big sisters are supposed to be... right? Protect the little one, even though she should have been the older one she sure ass hell bosses me around a lot.

Well for today I have written enough. and I hope this blog explains why I haven't been writing but I will write more often now because Its another release that later in the future I will re-read and laugh about or cry about or learn from.

And one thing is for certain I will never stop being a good person no matter how much crap life throws at me there is no excuse.

Love you guys.
Miry

98 bottles of Grey Goose on the wall....

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Hello readers... Today My legs and butt are sore. That is a very good thing ;) Me and Mabelle had a very good workout session yesterday at the gym. Manny might join up with us at 24 Hour Fitness too... So that would mean that I am once again recruiting everyone to my gym, even Made and Ever will probably join up together...I suggested the idea plus a daycare where D can be taken care off(pretty clever). It is a very good place I like it better than Porkys times a million.

Oh and Very fun things are happening.... Like concerts, birthdays, trips, and more.

I also like my horoscope for today:
Wednesday, Aug 19th, 2009 -- There's no value to being overly demanding now, even if you think you deserve more than you have. Today actually could disprove the notion of the squeaky wheel getting the grease, for the more reserved you are, the greater the payoff. Your rewards won't likely come overnight, but the healthy sextile between valuable Venus and calculating Saturn should give you sufficient strength of purpose, along with the ability to wait for sweet satisfaction.

Besides all of that everything is going pretty good... I am Happy, healthy, having fun, taking care of me and my own.

Oh damn.... I need to come back and write later I didn't notice the time was 12:50pm I need to go pick up Mabelle and head to the gym. Thank goodness I wrote out our workout before I started to write this.

Ill be back.....

Well Now that I am back from the gym...I will let you know how it went... It was great we got through the workouts quickly and effectively just so smoothly. My arms will be sore tomorrow!

Anyways I think thats really all I have to say today =)

=)))))))))

Miry

97th and counting down....

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Lets Review....

New Phone: In Black


My Touch... I hate touch screen & that's all it is .... Its been a mission...I miss my buttons!!!!

I want to see The Time Travelers Wife, but I feel that in order to see this movie I will need mental preparation and a box of Kleenex in my purse.

My to do list for tomorrow is printed and ready! My gym bag is prepared with all my Gym necessities and my Outfit bag with 2 possible outfits for my Audition. Now I haven't yet figured out what I am wearing for the Job interview but I have a little bit before I go to sleep to figure it out.

Today My little nephew was the cutest thing in the world we pretended to blow up cars and shoot eachother. <--- Awwwwwww. He is so dramatic when he gets pretend killed seriously hes my little actor. Today I saw Mr. Magorium's Wonder Emporium and I have to say that I cried like a freaking baby... True Story! I also saw True Blood and I cried like a baby at the end when Goddrick goes into the sun willingly. I am doing this thing now where I go to the library everyday for like and hour or two in the morning just to read and relax its actually very nice there, they have this little area with the comfiest little couches everrr!!! Good thing that library is like right there _ to my house. Movie Recommendation:
<---Saw it, Loved it, everyone should see it...End of story. Quote of the day: " Now you know better, so you do better."

Goodnight Loves.

96th Post.

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Wow... I was just noticing that this is my 96th blog post since I started this last May. And I guess I have to do something special for my 100th post soon. ---> I am such a dork. =)

Right now I am painting my nails in a bright pink and doing a million other things because I can't stay still and thats why they always mess up. Grrr... But, I have exciting news... I figured how to add a video to blog posts hoooray for me!

(FYI)
Miry's Recommendations:

Movie: District 9
Book: Wicked The Witch and the Curse.
Band: The White Tie Affair
Series: TRUE BLOOD <--- I am addicted.

Seriously can't wait for tomorrow. I bought another canvas... even if I suck at painting I love doing it.... it relaxes me. =) And in other news: Ive been twittering... I am a twitter fiend. I also can't wait for tonight Annabelle Mabelle Manny and I are heading to space tonight just to dance and have a good time, it's actually been a while.

I am in the best mood lately I can actually say I am 100% happy. Ahhhhhh... Plus I have a couple of interviews for the week coming up, Yay! Well I have to go finish up my girly girl things to do. So to all my readers I say toodooloo to you and have a great Saturday!!!!

=)

Will the message cause a motion?

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I saw this... so pretty...



One day. =)

Notebooks, Dancing Paper and ugly words.

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Hello my fellow readers I am back for the second time today to talk about nonsense as usual.

Let me see my day so far has gone splendidly well, I am in such a good mood might be the positive reinforcements of friends... and the gym. I miss my cousins though I wish they were back already. Dammit!

I feel very accomplished today because I finished two books and finished my to do list of the day and... I had an incredible workout not to mention I went to my special place and just thought about what I really wanted, I am so proud of myself for all that I have accomplished in the past two years and all the things left to do and see... all of the things I am able to do from what life and experiences have taught me and of all of the people that actually care about me which I appreciate their help and their love every single day of my life.

Today I got a text message... It was very surprising, something I did not expect at all. All I can say is... Wow.

Besides that my other blog is coming out very nicely and very informative... I have come up with very creative ideas that I will soon try out and post up.
http://r4improvement.blogspot.com/

That is all for right now.

Toodooloo to you, friends.

Woke Up Up Up...

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Hello Hello my fellow readers... I have awoken today in an excellent mood....

Maybe because despite my bad and disappointed mood from yesterday morning I actually had a very awesome day .... I got things done, went to the gym...then spent time at the beach with John and then went to the bookstore at night and then hung out with Manny got super lets, and ate awesome Pizza.... What a great day!

Now today's mission is to go to the post office to ship some items and drop off a check for my school loan... then go to the gym with my friend Steven... and find out about doing my personal Training and fitness certification.

I also have decided to read Wicked later closer to the date that the show come to Miami. To have it all fresh in my mind besides I have so many other books to read to accomplish this crazy goal.. Damn speaking about those things I need to buy my revolution ticket to watch Deadmau5 in November....Ahhhhhh and Tiesto is going to be in Orlando on the 16th of October... We are going to take a mini road trip on that day stay there for the show then the next day go to Hallowscream in Tampa hopefully ::crosses fingers:: its just an idea for now. Besides that I need to get a JOB soon soon soon because Vegas is in December and I need to make sure I've got enough money to go on that awesome trip with my amigas. =)

Today shall be another good day, I can tell....

I also can't wait for my Chikitika Bo0o and my Partner in Crime Annieballz to come back I miss them very mucho and cant wait to hang with them.

=) x 10
=) x 100
=) x 1,000


Mirylicious signing out with Lilycakes on my lap.

Dreams and Things

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Dreams: Lately they've been freaking me out. I dont just have nightmares I have weird weird dreams. I can't seem to get them out of my mind...

The other day I got "attacked" or pushed down on the bed without movement three times in a row while trying to fall asleep....in one of the times I felt someone come in the room and say things to me in my ear and I don't know what it meant. Anyway I have been having trouble sleeping since then.

Besides that...everything is pretty decent. Not bad not exactly good ...Just neutral...trying to do all my daily things and you know relax and trying to find a job.

I met .... and everything went well and all the feelings were there on my part... I don't know if he felt the same... I guess not. I really haven't heard anything from him. Just my luck.

The love life... I am Romantically challenged I guess or maybe its just not for a pretty good girl like me... lol its ok though guys/men/boys nowadays are pieces of shit anyway. They say one thing and do others, play games, cheat, test you, use you, blah blah blah the list goes on and on.... and I seriously don't want any part of it... All I need is my family and some Mary Jane.


I still want my happy ending and I don't think it'll be anytime soon.... Its been disappointment after disappointment.

I hate this feeling. Its going to be another unhappy day for me.

The Question.

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The question isn't about what's possible, the question is, what do you really want?

Hours passed....

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So what a day I had being Mad at the world for what has to be the 50th time this year.... I just get frustrated by my stupid thoughts. So I had a great 4 hour workout session at the gym just letting go of my frustrations and then looked at myself in the fucking mirror and realized I am a Dime piece...Yay me... congratulations Miry the mirror thinks you’re hot. Then after discovering that fact I danced a little stretched a little and tried to become a pretzel... Not to mention I had a good dinner and a good book ....so now I have fed my stomach and my mind... Go ME!! Then as I started to imagine the scenes from the book in my head so perfectly so precise so wonderful away from anywhere else.... "get silly, get silly, get silly" <----my phone rings....and it’s my silly goose of a cousin Annabelle which I absolutely love not only do I love that girl but I would die for that girl she is my ride or die till the end.....lol we always say that.... she wants to hang at 12:00 o'clock.... OH MY! I’m just not sure but I say yes because it always makes my day to talk to Annabelle about my frustrations and daily on-goings...which apparently are funny to her. Seriously Annabelle I could have died when that piece of shelf fell on my head! But yea I seemed to realize that my life was so weird. LMFAO<---- like seriously did some band decide from a book of IM-ing slang Just closed their eyes and went right for that one.... I do love them though and my polka dot bikini as well... Wow I apparently have so much to talk about I did some Amazon-ing to... mmhhhmmm... yes I did and I ended up buying 6 more books to add to my collection, pretty soon I’m going to need another shelf....this time I will make sure to be out of the room until this shelf business is complete. How can I possibly end this paragraph of my ramblings about weird day to day things...hmmmm....? I’m just going to say bye. "Bye!” ::waves at computer screen:: Oh no! Do computer screens wave back?

Still an awesome song!

Bruised - Jacks Mannequin


=))

Tired

2:19 PM Unknown 0 Comments

I am so tired... of being a good person.
I am so tired of being alone.
I'm so tired of being scared.
I'm so tired of thinking that everyone is out to play that same game with me.
I am so tired of lies.
I'm so tired of things being complicated.
I'm so tired of watching people act like someone else in order for someone to like them, maybe that's why I am alone because I never act like someone else.
I'm tired of society's Idea of perfect.
I am so tired of social networking.
I'm so tired that you can see everything everyone is doing and everyone your in competition with!!!
I'm so tired of people.
I am so tired of competition. ::sighs::
I'm so tired of seeing what you want in someone elses hands.
I'm tired of everything and everyone.
I'm tired of hearing bad news.
I'm tired of crying.
I'm tired of staying here in Miami.
I am tired of all the peice of shits living in this hell hole.
I'm tired of the bad memories.
I'm so tired of giving a lot more than i get in return.
I'm so tired, just tired.
I'm so tired of waiting.
I'm so tired.

Today is just not a fucking good day.

Going to the gym...then I dont know. Perhaps a walk in the park, yes that sounds quite lovely.

Daily Weird Things

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Today's annoyances.

Suicidal Birds... seriously swooping down in front of fast moving vehicles is not cool. Grrrr thank God I didn't kill him.

Cranky old ladies in the sauna telling me to lower my crazy rock music because it was bothering her.... Thank God I didn't strangle her.

Losing things. Where the hell is my license!!!!!

Gym music always reminds me of why I listen to an I-pod when I am at the gym. For an instant I take off my earphones and I hear "come on daddy let me see your grills".... Like who the fuck wants to see them grills, I sure as hell don't!!!!


Besides all that I had 250 contacts in my phone book and since I wanted to do some cleaning out in my life I now have 134 which consists of family, close friends, & important numbers.

Hmmmmm.... anything else I am leaving out.... Oh yes I finished my painting and now I need another new canvas and I am waiting for 3 new books to arrive, my new cellphone and I am going to go on a crazy Amazon spree.

Not today...Maybe tomorrow.

5:02 PM Unknown 0 Comments

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