Color outside the lines...

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I say, why not?

Having this discussion with my cousin made me ralize that I love being out of the ordinary...doing weird shit, saying weird shit, wearing different things... Im colorful and I like it that way.

I finished the painting of the drawing  that I was recreating and I must say I am pretty proud of myself. I can't wait to paint another.

You know what is great...that suposedly 2010 is going to be an awesome year for Pisces & I beleive it will be.

I feel Like making albums of the past 2 years and putting them up as a blog post and I think that's exactly what I will do after I finish making the bracelet...which I did already because I like to do a million things all at once.it's pretty.

I need to find my notebook.... its been lost for a few days and I will go nuts if I don't find it so I will do that and Maybe write tomorrow. Bye!

Unexpected.

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Life really cracks me up, things or people in life come unexpectedly, when you think that there isn't anything that can shift your universe in such a way that it leaves you utterly speechless, there it comes & when this happens its terrifying because just what you wanted came and all you want to do is run because its just not possible, it can be a trick, a mirage, just an image of what you want... it can't possibly be in front of you...then at this point you start to accept the possibility of what just happened except now your really terrified because your fighting with yourself to keep your composure, to keep your cool and not run away from something that is good. If you don't run then the hurt possibility is there and that's why everyone runs...
Because they don't want to break. I will not run. I will not turn away. Yes, when you do this you make yourself vulnerable and open yourself to being hurt once more, the beauty is that if you don't try then you'll never get anywhere and I'm done going no where. I don't want to waste my time, but this might be worth it. And that's when hope comes into play because all you can do now is hope that everything turns out alright and prepare for disappointment if it happens to come.

Magnificent Monday

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3 hours. I slept for 3 hours... At least I woke up one time from the help of parental unit 1 AKA Mom. As I finished getting dressed I grabbed my converses and headed to the backyard to enjoy the morning suns warm embrace, I can't wait till I plant my flower garden so that I have something lovely to look at every time I go to my backyard.

I have finished two books in a matter of 4 days... which is good because I am trying to get through enough of my reading goal list in this month.

I said I refused to talk about guys in this blog anymore until I was serious with someone... and I will stick to it... at least a little update of my love life couldn't hurt ... there is someone right now, all I can say is that things are heading in the right direction in a slow but nice pace and I am glad things worked out the way they did, I think that's enough of an update.

Christmas is coming up and I am excited because after Christmas the next step is New Years and I am so excited for the year up ahead. There is so much I want to do, so much to accomplish. It excites and frightens me all at the same time.

Yesterday was a weird one for me, I fell into one of my weird moods which was uncomfortable since 1. I am always naturally happy and 2. lately Ive been so much happier, All in all I think it was pretty much just because I laid at home all day vegetating and staying put which doesn't go over well with me since I am very active and usually can't stay still for more than a few minutes. I was trapped instead of free I even tried going to the park but there was to much going on, too many people, and not enough quiet.

I will probably write later right now I can't seem to focus to many thoughts going in and out of my brain.

Escapism…

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Sunday was all about this word I just said called Escapism… It just came to my head and since I know that somehow it came I didn’t know where but it did and I looked it up right now and it means: Escapism is mental diversion. I personally didn’t like this meaning, so I decided to make my own meaning of this word.

Miry’s Escapism:
Freedom. To just go, to move without an agenda, without a purpose to do what one wishes without the restraints of time, money, cell phone. All left behind except you and your wishes, you and whatever you feel like doing. Freedom. Get up, move about, run, dance, play, feel, sing, drive, speak, paint, draw, create, listen… however whenever with whoever. Freedom. Cry, feel, wander, explore, watch….just watch. Look, simply look around you while on Escapism… what are you looking at? What do you see? How do you feel when you see? Did you notice before? Freedom.


What a great Monday… I feel truly happy I can’t wait for Friday though since I have it off I am going to have an Escapism Day. =)

Random Rambling

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My first cup of coffee this morning, it’s amusing to me how every time I go to Seven Eleven for my morning coffee… I mix my coffee differently but with the exact same ingredients.

Last night I stayed home all night which is weird… I usually go out and do something. But no, last night I watched The Haunting of Molly Hartley all by myself and then Love Actually with my sister, after I read a few more chapters of my book and went to sleep.

I have a bit of writers block today because I want to talk about something….but I have refused to talk about guys anymore on this blog until I am seriously serious with someone, which is frustrating, I hate to have to omit these things in my head. I like to write about these things but…||GRRRRRRRRRRRRR||

I wish that I could run without a purpose across an open field in the middle of the night without shoes and lay smack in the middle of the field breathless and just look up at the sky for an infinite amount of hours then get up, run some more and jump into a lake without any care in the world that all my clothes are wet.

I can’t believe its Thursday already I feel like the week has begun and ended all at the same time. At least the first week of December has been a great one and hopefully the rest of December will be just as or even greater.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH….. That’s how I feel.

Beautiful Day - Sara Haze ♥

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I love that song.

For inspiration, for new perspectives.

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I can always feel when things are about to happen or when things are about to change. Slowly but surely that's whats happening. Things are changing, I am changing. I like how things are going.

Last night I tossed and turned and went in and out of sleep... to say the least I didn't want to wake up this morning, when I did my brain was muddy, it must have taken me 5 minutes to get moving I was at a total stand still just sitting up right in bed without a clue as to what to do next. Since, as of, the beginning of this year I don't get cold at night anymore, actually the opposite I get really hot and sweaty I just sleep in my underwear and the fan on... One of the reasons I want to live alone is because I would get to parade around my house in my undies and not have to worry about the parental units, which already think I have lost half of my mind.

I have to go buy a new canvas, I want to paint I feel inspired... Especially with this windy weather today...I opened a window at work...air is circling around me and making me feel absolutely tranquil. Peaceful. I want to paint how the feeling is. I wish I can explain but if I try to put into words how the wind is making me feel right now, it wouldn't come out right, not even close. I wish people could see and feel how the simple things in life are the ones that mean the most.

I'm day-dreamy today... Its not a bad thing though.

I'm off to go grab some coffee... =)

Possibilities in Chances in Miry's Words

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People will, intentionally or unintentionally, try to shake you, surprise you, disappoint you, break you... What you have to do is be ready...prepare yourself for the shake, the surprise, the disappointment, and the breakdown. Its going to happen whether you like it or not... Why stop living? Why stop going out and finding new possibilities. Why stop yourself because someone hurt you... When you stop yourself you miss opportunities, experiences even possibilities, Hello life goes on, or you die tomorrow with regret and sorrow that you waited for something that was in front of you the whole time or something you could have grabbed when you had the chance but didn't because you were scared, who is to say that the best times of your life never actually happened because you didn't let it, never gave it a fair chance to happen. If someone you want doesn't want you back,well tough, you will find someone who will want to give you those 100% that the last person couldn't or didn't want to. Don't waste time because time is a precious thing, a very very short precious thing.

I have been shaken, surprised by the idiocy of peoples actions, Utterly disappointed, and broken down so badly that I didn't want to see the light of day... I didn't deserve it, but guess what It happened and here I stand tall waiting for the next life experience, the next chance. I don't just stand here and wait any longer I go out and get what I want and if it doesn't want me back then too bad for them, they missed out...that's where my difference comes from, I will just keep moving along with my head up and my sweet smile and say "Next."

Next Possibility
Next Chance
Next Opportunity
Next Life Experience

Do not just stand still anymore, forgive and forget and move on. Take things for what they are and accept them and move forward.... That is what I failed to understand, the comprehension of this moving forward Idea was a big blur of nonsense to me because how could I move forward when my heart felt so heavy like it was dragging me down holding me still... Until I decided to take chances to stop being still and start moving forward with everything I've got. Because of this realization I have been a happy person the last year or so, I am happy. I've been happy. One disappointment after the next and guess what I am still not going to stop moving forward and being happy.

Breathe. Let go.
Breathe. Let go.
Breathe. Let go.
Breathe. Be happy.

The Past was, The Present is, what The future will be is up to you.

(c)Miry