Hours passed....

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So what a day I had being Mad at the world for what has to be the 50th time this year.... I just get frustrated by my stupid thoughts. So I had a great 4 hour workout session at the gym just letting go of my frustrations and then looked at myself in the fucking mirror and realized I am a Dime piece...Yay me... congratulations Miry the mirror thinks you’re hot. Then after discovering that fact I danced a little stretched a little and tried to become a pretzel... Not to mention I had a good dinner and a good book ....so now I have fed my stomach and my mind... Go ME!! Then as I started to imagine the scenes from the book in my head so perfectly so precise so wonderful away from anywhere else.... "get silly, get silly, get silly" <----my phone rings....and it’s my silly goose of a cousin Annabelle which I absolutely love not only do I love that girl but I would die for that girl she is my ride or die till the end.....lol we always say that.... she wants to hang at 12:00 o'clock.... OH MY! I’m just not sure but I say yes because it always makes my day to talk to Annabelle about my frustrations and daily on-goings...which apparently are funny to her. Seriously Annabelle I could have died when that piece of shelf fell on my head! But yea I seemed to realize that my life was so weird. LMFAO<---- like seriously did some band decide from a book of IM-ing slang Just closed their eyes and went right for that one.... I do love them though and my polka dot bikini as well... Wow I apparently have so much to talk about I did some Amazon-ing to... mmhhhmmm... yes I did and I ended up buying 6 more books to add to my collection, pretty soon I’m going to need another shelf....this time I will make sure to be out of the room until this shelf business is complete. How can I possibly end this paragraph of my ramblings about weird day to day things...hmmmm....? I’m just going to say bye. "Bye!” ::waves at computer screen:: Oh no! Do computer screens wave back?

Still an awesome song!

Bruised - Jacks Mannequin


=))

Tired

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I am so tired... of being a good person.
I am so tired of being alone.
I'm so tired of being scared.
I'm so tired of thinking that everyone is out to play that same game with me.
I am so tired of lies.
I'm so tired of things being complicated.
I'm so tired of watching people act like someone else in order for someone to like them, maybe that's why I am alone because I never act like someone else.
I'm tired of society's Idea of perfect.
I am so tired of social networking.
I'm so tired that you can see everything everyone is doing and everyone your in competition with!!!
I'm so tired of people.
I am so tired of competition. ::sighs::
I'm so tired of seeing what you want in someone elses hands.
I'm tired of everything and everyone.
I'm tired of hearing bad news.
I'm tired of crying.
I'm tired of staying here in Miami.
I am tired of all the peice of shits living in this hell hole.
I'm tired of the bad memories.
I'm so tired of giving a lot more than i get in return.
I'm so tired, just tired.
I'm so tired of waiting.
I'm so tired.

Today is just not a fucking good day.

Going to the gym...then I dont know. Perhaps a walk in the park, yes that sounds quite lovely.

Daily Weird Things

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Today's annoyances.

Suicidal Birds... seriously swooping down in front of fast moving vehicles is not cool. Grrrr thank God I didn't kill him.

Cranky old ladies in the sauna telling me to lower my crazy rock music because it was bothering her.... Thank God I didn't strangle her.

Losing things. Where the hell is my license!!!!!

Gym music always reminds me of why I listen to an I-pod when I am at the gym. For an instant I take off my earphones and I hear "come on daddy let me see your grills".... Like who the fuck wants to see them grills, I sure as hell don't!!!!


Besides all that I had 250 contacts in my phone book and since I wanted to do some cleaning out in my life I now have 134 which consists of family, close friends, & important numbers.

Hmmmmm.... anything else I am leaving out.... Oh yes I finished my painting and now I need another new canvas and I am waiting for 3 new books to arrive, my new cellphone and I am going to go on a crazy Amazon spree.

Not today...Maybe tomorrow.

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.......

Wow...

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I woke up this morning with a smile from one ear to the other.... Usually when I awake in the morning I am super cranky and bitchy, and people waking me up annoys me...So Manny calls because Mabelle is late once more waking up and being the good boyfriend that he is doesn't want Mabelle to be late... So he calls and I pick her up, when she gets in the car she can so tell my mood...she knows I'm not really a morning person... lol... and shes goes I can tell that your happy.... I ask her how can she tell and shes answers, because your smiling and your energy feels happy. So I spring into full conversation mode as to the result of my "Happiness." 

Even as I am writing this I am smiling like there is no end... I think today is a very good day thanks to... ;)

Ahhhh... I've got a feeling!!!

I feel like singign I was doing so in the car as well on my mission to find breakfast Manny suggested toget BK so I did I got a Crossiantwich and a small coffee...Oh and I told him about.... also and he says that its really good.




Ugh I have an audition for a movie on August 7th. I have to study my lines.... I think i can do wonderful as this part. I already read some of the script and it wont be hard to get into this character.

Did I mention how super awesome I am feeling today????




Well I have to go ship some items I sold.... Hopefully I can get better at this whole selling thing on ebay.... Its kind of tidious to list things one by one....blaaaaahhhh...


Toodooloo I will write later =)

How...

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How can something that feels right one moment, make you feel queasy the next?

Currently Watching:


Night Night.

Re-Evaluation

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Today Mabelle and I went to the park and had a heartfelt talk about life and our current situations, which led me to bring out two notebooks a couple of pencils and we both created a list of evaluation of the lives we lead now and what we want from life...we broke it down into specific areas. This re-evaluating life exercise was good because we made a new list of things we wanted to keep the same and things we should change for the better and we both realized we want more in our lives.

It was a good exercise and good day. We both said my special words and I think tomorrow we are both going to feel better and start working for the things we want for our futures.

We also agreed that squirrels are cute and we are going to go to the park with Sparkly Tiaras and our magical wands and dub each one different names. Hehehe...

I talked to her about .... and she has a very good feeling.

That is all for now... I have a list to compile of things i need to do tomorrow.

communication, it's the first thing we
really learn in life. funny thing is, once
we grow up, learn our words and really
start talking, the harder it becomes to
know what to say or how to ask for
what we really need, even from ourselves.

When I can't sleep at night...

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I write.
I am going to take this time to practice my typing skills without looking at the bloody keyboard....which is resulting more difficult with each word I type.

I am currently taking inventory of all the cool things i could sell on Ebay, which let me tell you is many things.

I don't really like to write on this state of mind or level I am at because my brain goes in all sorts of directions at the same time and even though it makes me go a little nuts I like the way it works.

Tomorrow I have a list of things I neeeeed*** to do. So I must get to it as soon as I open my pretty little eyes that have -1.00 on each eye resulting in the use of glasses and/or contacts. I didn't really need to say my eyesight level.


These are the ones I am going to get for contacts apart from my clear pair.
 

Sterling Gray Blends

Oh I really love Yahoo Answers... it's the best device on Yahoo... I love that I can ask a question and get it answered by a whole bunch of people who think they know what they are talking about or you could search on the question that your going to ask because chances are that 100's of people asked the same question you are going to ask....and you can read what others say and make a decision based on what they tell you or join in and give them a little advice of your own even if its made up bullshit....God I love the internet.... I can shop and be on a whole bunch of social networks all at the same time and runa gajillion programs all at the same time and try to be productive but now you have so many choices and things to do....wow was I rambling again.... Yea thats probably because I am lets and since  have noone to really talk to I am using my keyboard as a means of communication and letting out my awesome little feelings....and as far as practicing my typing goes i just rather look down at the keyboard because backspacing take a really long time to get all this out.



I want to explore Yahoo some more I will be right back...

::(Exploring Yahoo!)::
Yahoo Games is so much fun!!! I think i might rock @ pool.... Lmao

Diaper Dash

Keep all of the babies of DinerTown happy in the cutest Dash game yet! This is soooo cute...I cant believe Im playing this.... Oh oh I found Bejeweled and  Ahhhh I love word games =)

ok moving on....theres so many things that i am just going to stop exploring.

My horoscope says:

July 20, 2009

1. Pisces (2/19-3/20)

   It's more important than ever to keep connections alive with the people you love. They are ultimately your rock and can serve as a grounding force in your life. As you discover that your upcoming social calendar has a lot of holes in it, resist the urge to fill them up! Leave as many blanks as possible, and call up a friend who's been waiting for a date. While you're at it, get back in touch with a family member who needs an update on how you've been.

Miry + Online Shopping = Bad

I have to figure out...if my web cam is compatible with my IM service or if I am going to have to Download either Aim or Yahoo***... The reason I have the one I do because I can be signed on to both at the same time.  + all my email clients.

I probably shpuld be heading to bed now...

Before I do I want to say a few more things like I am super happy, that every tear that had to fall from my eyes, how every day I wondered how I'd get through the night. With every change that life has thrown at me... I'm thankful for every break in my heart, I'm grateful for every start. Some pages turned, some bridges burned, but they were lessons learned.

*** very important

Blah Blah Blah Miry is out...

^_^

Fast Forward

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Sometimes I wish I can see the future to be certain... to not worry or stress, to know that in the end of all of it everything is going to be ok. But then I think that if I do see it I would rob myself of the journey, the present moment because in the end that's all there really is...the right now.

So I made a deal with myself.... I will not look into the past anymore just take what I learned, I won't worry about the future and believe that everything will be ok and that right now Im happy so now "the present moment" is what I will worry about

I am just worried about more dissapointment.... though I haven' been dissapointed lately. And what if.... I just won't think about those things...for now.

Toodooloo.
^_^

The Odd little cat.

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 Every night when I come home there is a black and white cat outside waiting for me. Its so odd. He just hangs around the outside of my house like there isn't so many other houses to hang in front of... like really... and leaves when I get home. .

Last night we found 2 stray dogs walking the streets of Miami we wanted to take care of them...but all they wanted to do was dirty dirty things ...so we let them be after watching them for about 15 minutes..

Tomorrow I leave on a mini vacation where my parents rent at Delray and Im so glad I think I need to get away and enjoy the Beach and just read a good book while working on my tan...not that I am not already dark as it is...the sun loves me it gives me extra special attention... I have to take inventory of my sun protection tools, see how much i still have of the SPF 70 Neutrogena Sunblock Spray...I dont want to burn! I also want to get a new bikini... Im thinking of selling the ones I dont use or want anymore on ebay...which wouldnt be at all bad because I need the extra cash.

Something different is happening...something I am hopeful about. I can't help but smile just thinking about it. ::giggles:: Im just a tad bit.... but a lot of things are looking up.

My Father has helped me alot in the past couple of weeks. He's the best father ever...and theres no doubt I am his favorite. I think its just that we are so alike..we are both pieces and we do have some sort of the same personality. 

I need to go to the bookstore to get the second book of a new series I am reading... the reason I want to finish the series is because in the fall there will be a show coming out on it... its about....Yea yea if you know me you know what its about...Vampires and Love... I want to hurry up and read them because my list still stands as not even half finished and I want to complete it...but more and more books just keeps getting added (my fault i want to read everything) I might just start 2010 list now.

Besides all that I am super happy about my muscles!! lol my legs and butt are looking so nice =)  Hehehehe...Im wearing shorts and skirts and dresses more often now ... I also have started a fitness blog ...my idea is to help girls get fit in a healthy way. A lot of girls buy into the whole Im not going to eat and not workout  or (fad diets) to get skinny which is dangerous to ones health. I want to get a personal trainer and nutrition certification. I feel so good that I want other people to feel just as good about themselves... Does that make sense?

Well I am off to pick up my little boo at school from practice them I am heading to the gym and the bookstore, maybe even target they always have cute bathing suits...and I am on a budget so no expensive buying.

Ciao! ;)

Constantly changing, constantly evolving...

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Different then yesterday...
Better than before,
Still not as good as tomorrow...
Something always new and different happens
I can't say what will happen next because I never know
I will turn the page and forget about yesterdays regrets though.
Tomorrow is always a new beggining.
Tomorrow is always filled with new adventures,
I might cry out of sorrow tomorrow..
or laugh hysterically until tears come out.
It will still be different then yesterday
a new adventure everyday.
-Miry

I got inspired...
I cleaned out everything the other day.
I threw away things.
I deleted pictures.
I went to the park and recited my special words,
And then I took a stroll.
I pictured what I wanted most of all and well.... i need to keep that to myself. ;)

Dino passed away the other day =( they found him dead in the pool. I am going to miss him. I still remember the day I picked him out and named him Dino because he was so hyper like the Flintstones dinosaur "Dino." He loved cheese...I should have given him more. His special place on the couch is empty now and I can tell Lily is sad and missing him too. Eventually we will have to get a companion for her.

Well I think I am done writing for now... But all I can say is that I am hopeful and many things are still changing.



Miss Miry

Addiction

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Wow, is all I have to say about this.

Taking care of business, taking care of me.

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It’s been a productive week so far. I've been super busy, I haven't done a lot but I feel like I have, and I still have more to do before Friday. I also have a lot of decisions to make regarding my life, in every area I have some changes to make. Being healthy and taking better care of me is becoming more and more my lifestyle, has been for awhile already... I really don't understand how people can be so lazy. The only thing that I haven't cut out is the MJ but I have cut back a lot.

I'm doing a lot for myself and I think that’s how it’s going to be for a long while I don’t really want to deal with anyone else’s shit. Well except for my favorite people in the world: Mabelle, Annabelle and Made....But that’s about it. I'm also trying to step into a business mentality because if I don't find a J.O.B soon I am going to have to do my own thing like I have been planning but I can't do it at home to many distractions, so I need to find a place where I can work.. I was thinking the public library but I don't know. I have already made a bunch of budget cuts here and there things I don’t need, kicking my sister out of my phone bill, Filing for economic hardship in order to not pay my loan back for 12 months, things like that.

I re-dyed my hair to black and I can't wait to have it long once more....Damn the day I decided to cut it! I am waiting for my next unemployment check in order to get my contacts so I don’t have to use my glasses all the time. I’m thinking of a few pairs in clear and a few in Grey.

By this time next week I will be in Delray enjoy a week of vacation out and about in the sun and the beach and just enjoying it with the fam. I feel like I need to get a bit closer to them except for Mario he can go to hell.

I actually can't wait to go to the gym with Mabelle today we're going to dance!

I have also been doing research about psychic vampirism for the book that I am planning to write in the future. 6_6

I am also going to manage myself, in modeling I don’t want anyone to tell me what I need to do or not do in order to get into the business… I know what I am good for and at and I am taking care of my own shit.

I want to get through 3 books by the end of this week. And I need to speed up my reading if I want to accomplish my reading goial for this year, if not I will have to do some rolling over to next year.

For now that’s about it. There’s so much more happening, so I will be writing more often.

Cloudy Gray Skies will eventually be Clear Blue...

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Beautiful things come out of horrible situations. I know for a fact.
Out of sadness you get a new found wisdom on how the world
can look with a haze of gray clouds, how you can see the whole universe in a whole new way... I need to visit my special spot today.

I can't wait for the 5 days that I won't be here next week.

I also need to do many things today:

1. Ship Books and Items sold.
2. Go to the bank and deposit money.
3. Go to the gym.
4. Pick up Diploma
5. Email A whole bunch of places "job mission"
6. Pick up Mabelle from Practice
7. Move things around in my room because Im bored of it already
8. Read
9. Go to the bookstore.
10. Wash the Car
11. Visit Special Spot.
..... Other things......

Off I go on Mission Mode again. Ill write later I feel like I have a lot to say. And I might be making this blog Private. I don't know yet. I'll have to think about it.

Upset Stomache... Maybe I just need some Pepto.

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I wasn't ready for this. I was never prepared for this to happen. Who knew the ghosts of my past would continue to haunt me?

I need to be silent and still and alone for a while.